It’s been nearly 365 days since I started posting in this blog. A question needs to be asked now: Did I keep up with my resolutions for 2011? Let’s take a look and see:
- I resolve to post in my blog at least once a day for one full
Nope, that didn’t end up working out in the slightest. It’s completely my own fault that that would be the case though.
- I resolve to read one book a week for a year.
Ever so close on this one, but once again, I didn’t quite make it. 47 of 52 books this year.
- I resolve to create at least one concept a week, whether it be for music, a script, a short story, or anything else.
Once again, I didn’t complete this resolution. I kept up with it when I could, but when I actually had the time, I just blanked out completely.
- I resolve to actually practice my scripting more by writing at least five pages a week.
This follows along the same lines as the previous thing. I had the time, I didn’t do it. A couple projects started up, but didn’t get too far (sadly).
So, when you look at that, it’s a collection of failures over and over again. At least that would be the case on the surface. In my eyes, while I didn’t end up perfectly following all that, each resolution actually lead me to something much better than I probably would’ve had the end result of otherwise. Though I didn’t blog every day (and had long swaths of time where I didn’t post), I still brought up my writing skill when I did post, and what I did post more often than not was something I felt important. It think that may have been the better thing to happen than just being able to say “I wrote every day.” I was able to define those important things, and to a degree be able to put them in coherent collections of words that every once in a very long while could mean something to someone. Though I didn’t read 52 books, I got damn close, and that in and of itself is a victory and a defeat at the exact same time. My reading speed and comprehension is so much higher than it has been in years. I can read well over 100 pages in a day and still be able to tell you everything that went on. I’ve been able to find new layers to books I had read in the past and find writers that I had never read of before and find what I love to read about. Concepts may have been few and far between, but through them, I found a few I genuinely liked and expanded them a bit. I work on them from time to time and I hope I can move further with them in the near future. I didn’t write a ton of pages of script this year, but what I did write I genuinely liked, and I’m still excited to be writing with Vickie whenever we are able to be online for more than 20 minutes at a time.
This has been a year that has caused a great lot of change in me, from my views on the world, how my brain works, my personality, my treatment of others, and how I treat myself. I’m not the best person in the world, and I absolutely will never be that person. Somehow, I actually feel like I’m a slightly better person than I had been previous, and I’m going to go into this next year to expand on what I did this year, do it better, and make myself better in the long run. Thanks for those who followed me this year. I know I’ve had moments where I’m an insufferable ass-hat. You all who made it through that and didn’t punch me deserve accolades. Some of you helped me through a few tough times, and I thank you deeply from the bottom of my heart.
This has been an absolutely amazing year, and I can’t wait to see what 2012 has in store. Thank you all for reading. I’ll start back up again tomorrow with new goals, a new start, and quite possibly the beginning of a brand new blog with a new design and name. Good night, and happy New Year.